Friday, June 10, 2011

Chapter 10

Crash, crash, burn, let it all burn
This hurricane's chasing us all underground




Ch. 10



“The one thing I’m finding that I enjoy about being in Dallas in the middle of winter are the days when it’s warm enough for the women to be walking around in shorts,” Adam said as he took a bite of his sandwich, growling like a feral dog as he does.  “Your woman has smoking legs,” he declared with a mouthful of food as he proceeds to stare at Hanna’s legs while she’s walking by the team room with some DJ equipment.

Hanna does have beautiful long, lean, tanned legs that almost make me forget that she is almost a foot shorter than me.  I look over just in time to see her glance over, smile, and nod at the group of us eating lunch after running a youth clinic.  I turned back around to Adam and asked, “Don’t you have your own pair of legs to stare at?”

“Yeah, anyway, how is that snotty ass twit of yours?” Otter piped up.  Steve was not one to hide his feelings about Rachel and her attitude, especially after a couple of the guys found out how much shit she was causing with Hanna.  Adam had become smart enough not to bring her out when the group of us would go out for dinner or an evening at the club, but he was still tapping her, so obviously he didn’t wise up enough.  Every time she was mentioned, he would look away like he was being scolded for something he did wrong.

“She’s fine,” he mumbled.

“Dude, you need to get rid of that shit,” Krys Barch chirped.  “She’s bad news.  You can’t tell me there ain’t nicer pieces of ass out there for you to hit.”

“She doesn’t have many friends around here…” Adam began slowly but soon shut up when the whole table burst out laughing.

“She doesn’t have friends because she’s mean and nasty!” Wandell snorted as he held his nose from the water that threatened to come out.

“You guys don’t know her,” Adam mumbled as he shoved the rest of his sandwich down his throat, grabbed his water bottle and got up from his chair to leave like a child about ready to have a temper tantrum.

After he left the room, Morrow came over and sat down with us.  “So what do we need to do to get Burr unhooked from this chick?”

“Get her fired!” Wandell said.

“Can you fire interns?” Otter asked in a serious tone.

“I think so,” I said, adding my two cents.

“I’ll talk to the GM.  We gotta do something because she is really pulling him down,” Brendan said as he got up and walked out the door, presumably heading to the front office.





“Hanna!” Jimmy yelled up the steps to me as I finished editing the game night video for tomorrow.

“Yeah?”

“Boss man is requesting your presence in the board room.”

“Okay, let me finish this last part…”

“No, let me finish, it kind of sounds important,” he informed me as he walked into the room with a raised eyebrow.

“Something wrong?”

“Not quite sure, I can never get a real read on the guy.”

“Hmm, okay.  I’ll be back afterwards to clean up my shit.”

“Sounds good,” Jimmy said as he patted me on the shoulder.

I walked into the front office, waving “Hi,” to Juliet the secretary who was always so nice when I stopped by. Oddly, she just nodded back with a worried look on her face.  Oh this can’t be good.

I knocked on the board room door and was immediately let in by Assistant GM Provenzano.  My stomach dropped to the floor when I saw Joe Nieuwendyk sitting across from bitchy Rachel with a grumpy look on his face.  Fuck me now.

“Have a seat, Hanna.” He said in a pinched tone that I never heard from him before.  He was always very nice and outgoing any other day.  I could only assume Rachel had something to do with this impromptu meeting.

“It was brought to my attention earlier today by one of the players that there was some extracurricular activities going on between a few of the interns and the players.  While we have never had a rule in place about this, we have always expected everyone to uphold themselves in the most professional manner while at work or in public.  When relationships become an issue that a player is suffering and his work is affected, I have no choice but to step in.” 

The room was so quiet you probably could have heard an ant fart.  The tension was ridiculous and I swear I was going to need CPR to get my heart restarted.  Who the hell would have said that I was affected James’ game?  He’s been scoring goals and playing awesome as of late.  If anything I affected him in a good way… Joe took a deep breath and looked back and forth at the both of us, almost like he didn’t want to open the can of worms.  “To be honest the original complaint was lodged against Rachel with her relationship with Adam.”

I swear I could hear Rachel purse her lips and shake her head back and forth, but I didn’t dare to turn my head in look.  Mainly in fear that I would knock her the fuck out.  My ears were beginning to ring when Joe began speaking again, letting me know why I was brought in on this little meeting.

“When we spoke to Rachel about this, she acknowledged her relationship with Adam but she also brought up that your relationship with James has hindered your performance as an intern and has caused a riff amongst the players…to be fair we have to let both of you go.”

I didn’t even hear the rest of what he was saying because at this point I was not shaking like a leaf with complete fury ready to blow up as soon as he finished.

“Are you kidding me?!  You wretched little bitch,” I freaked out like a mad woman that just had her baby taken away from her for no reason.  I stood up abruptly and turned towards her; my roar must have been louder than I thought because I could have sworn I saw her cower.  “I have always acted in a professional manner out in public and even if it was just a couple of the team members because I respect the organization.  You seem to have some sort of high school complex where you are jealous of anyone who appears to get more than you.  Well let me tell you something honey, I’ve worked my ass off for this internship and I think I’ve cranked out some pretty awesome things and now because you are a petty whore who will probably live off daddy’s money for the rest of your life, I have now possibly lost my career.” I screamed as I pointed a finger in her face causing her to slide farther down in her chair.  I then turned to Joe and Provo and went off on them because I was more than disappointed in the fact that they would believe her dirty ass mouth.  “As for you believing her, I’m sorry to hear it because I had a lot of pride in this organization and figured you would double check your sources before making a decision on cutting someone who actually cared about their internship.  I’m sure if you’d talk to the team they would have nothing but good things to say about me and how I’ve acted over the last month and a half despite the fact that I was dating one of your players.  I have to say that I’m probably relieved that I will not be working for an organization who believes girls who stoop to levels that prostitutes do!”

 I was out of breath by the time I finished my rant.  I had thoroughly surprised myself in my spazz-attack, but damn it felt good after putting up with the stupid extra shit they were making me do for no reason over the last couple weeks after Rachel’s first complaints.  I could tell they were shocked also by my outburst because neither of them made a move as I went to the door.  I held my head up until I got out of the office and began walking down the lower corridor.  I soon found a corner and broke down into tears.

I don’t know how long I sat in my little self-made corner, but it must have been a while because I was at the point where no more tears could be shed, causing me to make a God awful wheezing sound when Brad found me.  He sat down on the cold, cement floor and wrapped his arm around me so that I could curl into him.

“I just talked to Juliet,” he said evenly.  “What happened?”

“I got screwed by the dumb cunt,” I stuttered out.  “They needed to make an example of someone, she fed them lies and now my future is fucked and I fail my last college class that will mean the most on my resume.

“Do you think it would help if the team went in and talked to Joe and Povo?” he asked quietly, but before he could finish I was already shaking my head back and forth.

“Oh hell no,” I chuckled sadly.  “They soooo saw my evil side when I flipped shit.”

“Yeah, Juliet said you got a little loud.  She called me because she figured you didn’t make it back to your apartment,” he said with his easy smile.  “I just told her that was the Richards temper that only people in our family usually see.”

A sad smile crossed my face because he was totally right.  I think I had only unleashed that attitude on my brothers and occasionally my parents and cousins.

“So now what?  Do you want to look for a job around the city?”

“I have to call my professor and find out what I need to do.  I’m not sure if I’ll be able to graduate now without my internship completed, or hopefully they will let me submit the things I already did the past month and half and count it for some partial credit so I can get my degree.  Most likely I will be headed back to Colorado for a bit.  I’m sorry for failing, Brad,” I whimpered as I looked up at Brad with tears finding their way back into my eyes.

“You didn’t fail me, girly.  I know for a fact that you were one of the best interns Jimmy has had and he’s going to be royally pissed when he finds out what happened, including the team.”

“What do I do about James?”

“What do you mean?”

“I’m sure he’s not going to want to be with me if I’m not going to be in Dallas…”

“Don’t be stupid, it would just be like the rest of the guys whose girlfriends and wives don’t live in the area.  That boy is head over heals for you and I’m pretty sure you feel the same way,” Brad said as he wiped a tear away from my face with the pad of his thumb.

I took a deep pouty breath and slammed my head back against the cement wall, letting the pain numb me for a moment until the sting of it made me rub the now sore spot.  “I’m pathetic.”

“Whatever, you need a drink,” Brad declared as he got up off the floor and pulled me along up with him.

“I need a tissue and a cold wash rag because there is no way in hell I am going out like this,” I whined as I wiped at my swollen eyes that I could only assume looked completely blood shot.





“Yeah, Burr?” I asked as I answered my cell phone while pumping gas.

“Dude, have you talked to Hanna?!” he asked frantically.

“Um, no.  Why?”

“They fired her and Rachel today.”

“What?!” I yelled into the phone loud enough to make people look at me like I was a crazed freak.  “What the fuck did your piece of shit ho-bag do?!”

“She’s no longer mine and I am sooooo sorry,” he pleaded into the phone quickly.  “She supposedly made up some lies, saying that you and Hanna were inappropriate in public like her and I had been and said that Hanna wasn’t doing her work, causing other interns to pick up her work load.”

“I’m going to kill her and possibly you too,” I grumbled as I hung up the pump and crawled back into my Escalade.  “I’ll talk to you later,” I snapped as I hit the end button and dialed Hanna’s.  Of course, she didn’t answer.  I drove over to her apartment to find her car there, but when I walked into the apartment she was nowhere to be found.  I took out my phone and dialed Brad as I stood in her living room, looking up through the sky-lights to see the darkening clouds.  That is one lovely omen.

“Hey James!” Brad yelled into the phone.

“Are you with Hanna?”

“Yup, we are at Charlie’s Grille if you can’t tell,” he said happily.  “Hanna needed to get a few drinks.”

“Okay, let her know I’m heading there now.”

“Alright, we will see you soon!”

I walked into Charlie’s where the crowd was watching the Cowboy’s Monday Night Football pre-game show.  I scanned the people and soon found a bleary eyed Hanna sitting in a booth across from Brad as she leaned up against the wall looking sadder than the droopiest faced basset-hound.

I quickly scooted in next to her and pulled her into me as I kissed her head.  “Hey baby,” I whispered loud enough for her to hear.  She looked with her large brown eyes and my heart broke when I noticed their normal sparkle was gone.  “Looks like you might need another drink,” I said with a sad smile as I smoothed her hair off her face.

Once the waitress brought over another round of drinks, the three of us sat and hashed out the events.  I couldn’t believe that Joe and Provo just basically fired her without checking with the rest of us first.  I was furious enough that I decided I was going to stop by the office the next day to spout out my two cents.  I figured that Hanna’s future with the Dallas Stars was done, especially if her freak-out was as bad as she claims it was.  But, I was at least hoping the organization could at least send in a couple good words to her college to make sure she got the degree she deserved.  Her work around here did not go unnoticed by my teammates.

“James, just go home and get some sleep.  You have a big game tomorrow that you guys need to win to stay in playoff contention and I do not want to keep you up all night,” she pleaded with me as I walked her to her door.

“I’m going to be up all night worrying about you…”  I stopped speaking as she laid a finger across my lips and gave me a look that only a woman can give that shuts a man’s mouth.

“I’ll be fine.  I will not take the blame if you play like shit tomorrow,” she growled semi-playfully as she stood up on her tip toes and kissed my cheek.

I pulled her towards me before her heals hit the ground again and captured her lips in a deep kiss.  After a few moments she pulled back, leaving us both panting.  “Are you sure you don’t want me to stay?” I asked in a husky voice as I leaned down against her ear, causing her to shiver in my arms.

“Go home you mess of a man.  I love you,” she said, grabbing a hold of my face with her hand to make sure I didn’t send chills through her again.

“I love you too babe, I’ll come over here after morning skate and we’ll do lunch and possibly my pre-game nap together?” I asked hopefully.

She nodded her head slowly as a sad smile crossed her face.  “That sounds like a good idea.”

“You will be coming to my game tomorrow night too…”

“I don’t know…” she began saying but this time my finger came across her lips.

“You are now officially a WAG and not an employee, I get to flaunt you around without having to worry, so let me spoil you,” I said, leaning down to steal another good-night kiss.

She pulled back before I could get my lips on hers and said in a slightly defiant tone, “I’m going to get a job or something, James.  I’m not going to sit here in my apartment that my cousin is paying for and do nothing.”

I was slightly taken back by her attitude, but I knew she was hurting so I said, “Hanna, I expected you to find a job.  I know you are independent and believe me, I’m not going to ask you to sit around and wait for me with nothing to do.  I’m just trying to tell you that I’m glad we can go out in public and act like a normal couple, that’s all,” I said softly as I brushed her cheek.  “Go get some sleep, I love you.”

She sighed, realizing what she had said came out a little harsh and said, “I’m sorry.  I promise to try really hard not to be cranky for the next week or two.”

“And if you are, that just goes with the territory.”

A small smile that resembled the ones I am used to on a regular basis showed and I was finally able to get that last kiss I had been trying for the last few minutes.  It was shorter than I had hoped and kept me wanting more, but I was willing to wait until tomorrow when I could hold her in my arms.

Wednesday, June 8, 2011

Chapter 9

Hey All!! Back from my jaunt to north central PA, so I figured I'd better get posting again!! Thanks for the lovely comments!!! You peeps are great!!


I wanna live life, never be cruel,
I wanna live life, be good to you.
I wanna fly, never come down,
And live my life, And have friends around.
We never change, do we?
We never learn, do we?




Ch. 9



“Do you realize how many hits we’ve had on your first team-mate mayhem video?!” Jimmy exclaimed when he came crashing into the booth.  I was finishing up my pre-game music mix, so he easily startled me.

“W-wait, what?!” I asked loudly, pulling my head phones off my ears.

“The website has blown up from everyone viewing the Burish team prank video.  You were right; people want to see more team interaction on the Stars Vision.  The front office is a buzz with compliments.”

“Well that’s good news,” I smiled and gave Jimmy a high-five.  “I am actually just putting together some of the individual interviews I did when we were in Boston right now.  I’m thinking the first one we should put up is the one on Brendan, since he is the team captain and all…”

“I was looking through some of them yesterday,” Jimmy spoke, sitting down next to me.  “You had some really good questions, meaningful ones and it showed that the guys were impressed, just from their answers…”

“Well, I wanted to ask questions that would get them to open up about them.  Too often interviews are the same old questions, ‘Who was your favorite player growing up? How old were you when you first played hockey…’ these are all good questions, but I wanted to ask them more personal things and it seems to have worked.”

“It’s obvious you’ve put a lot of thought into it.  Hanna, you really aren’t going to have a hard time getting a job.  Your editing skills are amazing and your creativity pushes everything right along.”

I couldn’t help but blush.  I was not one to take compliments very well.  “Thanks,” I said meekly.

“Just don’t sell yourself short, sweetheart.”

“What do you mean?”

“I’m just saying that I can’t wait to have you as my assistant here at the rink for the next season, but if something else opens up, give it a good look because there really isn’t any reason that you couldn’t be a media/marketing director for a team as soon as you get that degree in your hand.  I understand you probably have more than one reason to stay here in Dallas now, but I’m your mentor, so it’s my place to remind you not to allow a relationship to dictate what decisions you make with your career.”

“Sounds like you are lecturing me,” I frowned slightly.

Jimmy chuckled and shook his head.  “No, honestly I’m not.  I’m just trying to give advice.  I know you are seeing Neal and I realize how easy it probably is for a young girl to get caught up with some of these guys, but you have your head on straight and I just wanted to keep you on track.  I hate to see good talent possibly go to waste because they fall in love.  You can definitely have both, just remember that balance.”

I bit my lip and nodded, looking down at my left wrist that was now sporting a hand-made handmade bracelet James had made me on the last night of our mini-vacation.  I was helping my mom make dinner while he decided to snoop around my bedroom and find my thread kit I had since I was a kid.  I was actually surprised he had found it when he came bee-bopping downstairs with it in his hands.

“I see you are quite the jeweler, Hanna!” he smirked while dangling one of the floss bracelets I had made in Jr. High.

“Playing super-slooth in my room, are we?” I grimaced, feeling myself blush while I swiped the bracelet out of his hands.

“No need to be embarrassed!” he laughed, swiping it back and clutching the container of probably 100 different colors of floss against his chest.  “I had tons of these things growing up…I was the coolest guy in school.”

I snorted, “Oh, I’m positive you were the coolest guy…”

“I was,” he pouted as serious as possible.  “I got all the girls since I knew how to make the bracelets.”

“Dork.”

“Like you are any better?!” he scoffed, tapping the container with his forefinger.

I just shook my head and went back to helping make dinner.  By the time we were getting off the plane in Dallas he was tying the black and olive green bracelet on my wrist.  It was just a simple round barrel pattern, but it had actually been my favorite growing up.  When I looked up to give him a kiss and thank him, he dangled an identical bracelet in front of me.  I took it from him and tied it onto his right wrist.  I’m sure if any of the guys noticed they would make fun of him for it, but for now it was our little secret.

I found it slightly ironic that Jimmy was talking to me about balance between career and relationships when I had been the one talking about the same thing with James more than once already.  However, it was a reminder I probably needed, especially since lately I found myself daydreaming about James more and more.

It was hard not to lose myself when I began thinking about how he treated me like a princess, top it off with his thick, unruly hair and grey eyes…well, I was a pile of goo.  The whole relationship seemed surreal.  Some on the outside might say it was perfect, too perfect, but I was excited to finally have someone that treated me the way I had always felt I should be treated.  Too many of the guys I had dated in the past were losers with not on a terrible habit of treating me like shit but also a huge lack of direction in their lives.  I was a woman who thrived in an environment where I had a constant plan and goal to work towards.  It was nice being with a man who had those same ideas.

Even though everything was going amazingly well, I wasn’t jaded.  I knew things could change at the drop of a dime.  I had been there before, this wasn’t the first time I dated a hockey player.  In fact, probably every guy I dated played hockey, but this shouldn’t be a surprise since I grew up in a hockey playing family.  That’s why I learned to live and love in the moment.

My previous relationships seemed to have failed for numerous reasons, but the main one was the simple fact that I was too focused on my own goals to follow through with commitment.  I never cheated on my boyfriends with other guys, I just cheated on them by becoming too attached to whatever project I was working on at the moment.  So in essence, James and I are the perfect match.  We both needed help in the balance department, and so far it was working quite well.

Our mini-trip to our hometowns was a complete success.  His mom was already planning for me to come home with James during the summer and my mom and dad were already planning on me bringing him along on the family vacation to the Bahamas.  Luckily only my youngest brother was home because I’m sure my older brother would have put James through the 100 question test that he had insisted on putting every one of my boyfriend’s through in the past.  My dad seemed to like him, but James was still made to sleep on the couch downstairs, despite the fact my mother even argued over the fact that he had to have known we were probably sleeping in the same bed on a nightly basis.  As much as I was happy to have her stick up for me, I was probably even a little more embarrassed by her calling me and James out on that little fact; both of us just sat at the dinner table blushing profusely. 





“This is soooo weird to me!” Hanna laughed as she cast her line into the stream.

“What’s weird?  Going fishing on a date?” I asked, slightly confused by her reaction.

“Oh no, definitely not!  Every one of our dates could be a fishing trip,” she smiled brightly.  I couldn’t agree more.  I had to practically drag her out of the arena today so that she would just come out for a relaxing afternoon.  I informed her that she deserved a break from her video work, just like I deserved a break from the hockey scene.  After a few pleading kisses, I had her thinking my way.  She looked adorable in a pair of jean capri’s and light pink GAP t-shirt.  Her hair was pulled back in a messy pony tail that popped through the back of her plain black baseball hat.  She pulled off the tom-boy look in style and I was enjoying the view each time I glanced over in her direction.  “It’s the weather.  If I was in Colorado right now, I’d be snowboarding and all bundled up in my winter gear.  It’s the beginning of February and I’m wearing sandals!” she cried happily, kicking out her one foot to show off her perfectly pedicured toes.

“It’s definitely one of the perks of playing in a non-traditional hockey market, I’ll give you that,” I laughed.  “But I gotta say, I feel like it makes me more of a chicken when we get up north and play.  I always loved winter when I was a kid, but now I’m finding I slightly despise it because of how the cold actually gets to me,” I admitted.

“I have to remember to pack warm clothing for the road trip,” she sighed, reeling back in her line so that she could cast out once more.  “Maybe you’ll let me borrow that silly hat…”

“Oh no!” I cut in right away, knowing exactly what she was talking about.  “That is off limits and it’s not silly.”

She lowered her rod down towards the water and turned to face me with her hand on her hip, giving me a look of attitude.  “I’m your girlfriend,” she said in a slow broken sentence, emphasizing each word.  As soon as she was done speaking, she popped out her lower lip and produced a heart-wrenching puppy face.

“Seriously?!” I laughed, throwing my hands up in the air and almost dropping my fishing pole in the water.  “How am I supposed to go up against that?!”  She some how kept the puppy face, even though her eyes gave away the fact that she was dying from laughter inside, and shrugged her shoulders.  “You truly are evil, Hanna Richards,” I sighed, finally able to tare my eyes away from her fake sad face.  “My niece gave me that hat and I have never let anyone wear it.  I’m afraid they’d lose it or something.”

“Oh,” she said quietly.

There was a moment of silence between the two of us.  “If it’s cold enough, I’ll let you borrow it,” I murmured, silently hoping she couldn’t hear me.

“James, you know I’m just joking with you,” she giggled.  “Brad told me you were really protective of it, so I wanted to find out for myself.”

“Brad’s an ass for telling you that but yeah, he’s totally right,” I conceded, shaking my head.

Within the blink of an eye she was by my side and hip checking me.  “I would never make you part with something special like that, but I have to say it’s completely adorable on how protective you are over it.”

“Adorable is not a word that should be used when describing me.”

“Why?  Because it’s not manly enough?”

“I do have a reputation to hold up out on the ice,” I chuckled and winked at her.

“You’re not an enforcer…”

“No, but I am a professional hockey player and we are supposed to be all intimidating and intense,” I laughed, failing miserably when I attempted to make a severe looking facial expression.

“I find your dark, inquisitive side is much sexier,” she informed me in a low whisper.

“You’re flirting.”

“Are you having a problem with it?” she took a step back and raised an eyebrow.

“Well, I was just thinking that I don’t normally take girls fishing because they can be such a distraction…”

“So now I’m a distraction?!” she took a step back, trying to act like she was appalled.

“You’ve been a distraction since day one,” I laughed, reaching out and wrapping an arm around her waist so that I could pull her towards me and kiss her; but before I could she left out a squeak and turned towards the water, watching the end of her rod bend towards the water surface.

“I’ve got something!” she yelled like a small child, bouncing up and down as she began reeling it in.

I set my fishing rod down on the ground and stepped behind her, reaching around to take a helping hold onto her fishing rod while she reeled in.

“Slower, you don’t want to bust the line,” I instructed her patiently.

“This isn’t my first time, Neal!” she bit.

“I’m just trying to help,” I informed her, playfully pinching at her side.

“You’re going to make me lose the damn thing!” she whined and giggled.  Soon after she reeled in a beautiful 8 inch trout, surprising me when she reached down and picked it out of the water herself.  “I’ve got my dinner, how about you?!” she grinned broadly.  After taking a picture of it with my phone, we went back to fishing.  It was a perfect afternoon spent together and I was quickly realizing how much better life could be with someone to share it with.  I’m not sure I had ever dated a girl who was so down to earth.  Constant banter was being thrown back and forth between us.  It was a real turn-on to be dating a woman who was goal oriented and independent.  However, the more time we spent together, the more I found she sometimes became too enthralled in her work.  It was easy to see that she had the same problems I did when it came to balancing the important things, which in a way I felt comforting.  She was doing a great job at keeping me entertained, which was the reason I didn’t take no for an answer today when I approached her about going fishing.

“Thanks for making me come out this afternoon.  I needed this,” Hanna yawned, while reclining the passenger seat of the Escalade as we headed back to mine and Brad’s place to cook up the fish we just caught.

“You seemed a slightly stressed earlier, so I wasn’t taking no for an answer.  Your internship is an internship, not a job, so I figured you needed to be reminded of that.”

“But it’s going to get me a job.”

“You are already going above and beyond for the organization, Hanna.”

She sighed and looked over at me with knowing eyes.  “I know.  I’m just a perfectionist.”

“Which is exactly why I brought you along,” I chuckled.  “Besides, you already have your foot in the door, there is no reason to blow all your ideas during your first few months with the team, right?”

Wednesday, June 1, 2011

quick note

hey all!!

just wanted to let you know that I won't be posting for the next week... I was going to set it up to automatically post, but I'm still doing some tweeking to the next chapter.  I'm heading to my cabin for a much needed and well deserved vacation. The best part in my book is there is no cell service and no internet but I will at least have TV to watch the SCF!!
I promise to get back to posting every other day when I get back!! Thank you all for such the awesome comments and thanks for reading my musings!!